OH MY GOD

this hott chick, on my myspace was like
"hey, watch me on webcam"

wow.. talk about tempting


I didnt though

Ryan, I'm sorry if you hate that I say this, it is in hope that it helps or makes you think more, but I think you put yourself in those positions more then it is necessary. Start thinking more about who you associate with, not just wether she is hot, or scene/emo, or whatever. Sometimes there are some really sweet girls that love God and wouldn't do ANYTHING to make you lust towards her, but she could be completely opposite in what you find attractive. And try to find a few good Godly guys of different groups(not just emo/scene or whatever) that you can look up to. That will hold you accountable for what you watch or see.
One of my mentors, Jonie, was talking to me about distractions the other night after worship, and she gave a great analogy: Your mind and your soul is a property, now, a bird might try to land on your property but you have to let it just keep on flying, and it is going to try to poop on your house, but you can't let it, you just have to tell it to go away, and to keep on flying, because it isn't going to land on your property. I thought it was a cool thing. It really made me think. I hope it does you too.

yeah, I was talking to clay.
HE IS SO HELPFUL.


I deleated alot of people off of my myspace

but why meee???

i've been there
but i said yes
its actually what first got me into porn
sad sad day

ugh, things that seem little
effect us for life

yeah
if i could go back
and stop my self
i would in a heart beat

it didnt seeem that bad at the time 'what can it hurt?"

and now its been like 2 years

i don't know if you know this, but girls struggle w/ this as well; me being one of them since around the age of 9. i just wanted to know that i know exacatly(!) what your going through. no lies. i've been through it all. it's really embarrising to talk about. reason being...im a female and we aren't supposed to have this problem...right? it's a dirty feeling, and i have been struggling with it for many years and it won't go away. i've tried plenty of times but i just keep coming back to it. the longest i've gone is a week. so you're on a better track than i, ryan (:

it;s ok. he deleated me too. it;s all good. but i do miss reading his blog poems and songs.

yeah same here. I get so upset because I really do want to stop, asnd I ask God to take away those desires, but it always feels like God is away when my mind heads that direction. It's not always like that though. It's been better lately. I haven't looked at any porn in around a month I think. Part of it is that God has placed a lot more responsibility on my life lately, and I feel closer to Him, and part of it is that I can think of "her" in a loving way instead of lustfully.

Ah, it feels good to vent.

yeah, people don't usually realize that girls struggle with porn and masturbation almost just as much as guys do... i think it's something like 90% of guys and 70% of girls or something like that, so it's not at all unheard of, although girls usually don't say anything about it

^not many guys say that much about it unless they're around their close friends.

not so much bringing it up, but rather admitting it

not like this is really the thread for it, but I deleated my myspace, and everybody along with it

hey, if it helps, then good for you